FocusT25Been out of the gym for well over a month and my body is definitely feeling the effects of no activity and lots of junk food. Slowly but surely I fell back into some old bad habits. I would be awake at 6AM sometimes earlier but I choose to lay in bed thinking about working out for about an hour.

I have always been a fan of Insanity but I never made it through the workouts. Can you imagine my amazement when I discovered the new workout program from Insanity creator Shaun T. Said it is designed so anyone can do it. Hmm, an hours worth of exercise crammed into 25 minutes. Only equipment needed for most of the workout is NADA. Yesterday I started this new workout lol did not realise just how out of shape I am. After the first 4 minutes I was panting and finding it hard to keep up. Luckily there is a modifier who demonstrates a less intense, lower impact version of the moves which saved me. I barely pulled through but I did it. Stay tuned.

I work out 2OMG! so hard to believe its a Friday already.  Just getting out of work but decided to rush a quick post in.

All and all I had a good week with the exception of Thursday.  I went to bed fairly late 11:30pm or so and got out of bed a bit after 5:00am.  I was so tired it took me 30 minutes to get to the gym as opposed to the usual 10 minutes.  I got to the gym and for the first time I under performed I felt like I did in the beginning.  I could not even finish the usual 30 mintes I did 20 minutes instead then did a bit of weight training.  A reminder of how I was when I first started.  Not sure if my tiredness was due to lack of sleep, too little calories or perhaps a bit of both.  After getting home from work I took a nap for almost 2 hours and felt rejuvenated.  As I did not have dinner my partner took me out for ice cream I had frozen yogurt and yes 2 scoops.  Not diet food but was a nice treat and still managed to stay within my calorie range.  I recently signed up on there I am able to track my food and exercise handy little tool to have.

Despite feeling so horrible yesterday I am glad I did the little yesterday and today I did way better than I did yesterday.  YAY!!!!

So, I guess the long and short of it is that there will always be compelling reasons NOT to work out and only one reason to work out: I don’t want my stomach to be taking up residence on my lap  for the rest of my life.


Go At Your Own Pace

yes-you-can Since starting my journey I have read tons of blogs and found some very helpful ones, so I decided to start over this blog with the hopes that someone will find some inspiration in me.

It is still so hard to believe that 1 month ago I was stuck in front of the television watching infomercials about weight loss and thinking I can never do that.  I have come so far in only 1 month.  I have gone from eating fast food 6 days a week to cooking my own meals at home.  I am still able to have snacks up 3 times a day…. I just make better choices.

As for exercise… the hardest part for me now personally is getting out of bed at 5:00 am but once that is done it’s all down hill from there.  I have gotten over my fears and insecurities about going to the gym.  Most everyone is there for the same reason as I said most.  I am just waiting to build the abs and the level of confidence so I can work out in my tights leggings and sports bra if I so choose (smiles).  The important thing is to find something you feel comfortable doing whether dancing to your favorite CD in the privacy of your home or going for a walk around the neighborhood or just sign up at the gym.

Some important points to remember:

  1. You are not going to lose 50 lbs in one week so be patient.
  2. Go at your own pace if you can do 5 jumping jacks today that’s okay tomorrow try for 6.
  3. Have fun while working out try  listening to your favorite tunes and if you want to sing while at the gym try using the inside voice.
  4. If all else fails fake it til you make it.  Stick with it you will feel the results before you actually see them.

So far I am down 11 lbs and I already feel the difference.  I have so much more energy, my stomach feels less bloated and I am beginning to see a difference in the way my clothes.  I love my sagging pants so much right now.  Can’t wait to start shopping for that new wardrobe.

My first weigh in!!

I was working out at the gym for more than a week before I  got the courage to step on the scale.  I cautioned the trainer about ever saying my weight out loud.    I estimated that I was approximately 195 pounds but boy was I wrong.  208 lbs, how is that even possible?  My heart sank when I realized just how heavy I was.   At that point I felt discouraged.  Not sure if he saw my disappointment but he added that’s good simply means that your weight will drop really fast.  Not sure if such a statement was fact or bullshit but I liked it.

OMG!  Funny where motivation comes from but at some point I got sick and tired of people telling me how round I was getting

It has been a while since my last weigh in so today I was out of bed at the crack of dawn.   It has been 1 month since I started eating healthier and enrolled at the gym.  Time to see the results of my hard work and sacrifices.  With today being the first day back at the gym since Thursday I could not get through the door fast enough.  As I approached the scale my anticipation began to die.  “So we meet again?”  I took my shoes off and hopped on the scale set it to 205 the lever fell my heart began to race.  What does this mean, I adjusted a bit heavier then 200 then 197 it leveled.  I really outdid myself.  I know something was happening with my body but just did not expect it to be that much weight loss.  Knowing that I am making healthier choices is great however being 10 pounds closer to who I aspire to be is fucking awesome.  Almost as good a feeling as that guy in the supermarket asking if I work out.

Today’s Weight 197lbs 
Last weigh in (208 lbs)
Total weight-loss (11 lbs)

Update my Expectations

It has been a month since I started my healthier lifestyle journey and it has not been an easy road.  Everyday I find myself undressing in front of the full length mirror that hangs on the bathroom door.  Just inspecting my body to see if there is one less bulge one less dimple.  I am sometimes discouraged because with all the hard work I have put in at the gym my slimmer body should have been here by now.

“It crazy to do the same thing over and over while expecting a different result”

On this journey I decided that I will educate myself about this healthy lifestyle I am pursuing. There is so much information to process.  Do this not that; sometimes very confusing.  By applying some commonsense to what I was reading it became apparent- regardless the amount of exercise you put in;  food in most cases will be the deciding factor in whether you maintain, lose or gain weight.  Makes sense?  Take for instance at the gym yesterday I ran/walked  2 miles on the treadmill and saw approximately 250 calories burned.  With 1 pound being approximately 3000 calories that is a lot of time on a machine and I just don’t have time for that.  So along with the new exercise regimen I have  made drastic changes to what I eat.   its not perfect but I am very mindful of the portions I put on my plate and how I prepare them.  I do not like to think of myself as dieting but more so managing what I eat.  I can still have a burger if I felt like or a pizza but instead of this being an any day of the week thing I reserve such a treat for a weekend or I make it at home.  That way I can monitor what goes into my meals.

With all that said guess I will need to adjust my expectations but most importantly to be patient with my body as it goes through the changes.  After all, I did not gain all this weight in just one month.

Back on the Road Again

just_do_it_by_ihack217-d5ods1xIt is scary how quickly your weight can just spiral out of control.  One week you are wearing a particular top that make you look good the next thing you know you are hiding various bulges by using a blazer.  I came to the point of realization that something had to be done after seeing a photo of myself and not recognizing at first glance who was starring back at me.  Sad yes I know.

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day of your lifeWow, seems that I have been away forever from blogging (not that anyone noticed).   I decided to rid my blog of its old contents as I am ready to embrace a new beginning.  The reinvention of Me, yet again.   I am not sure why, but today I had the urge to just write shit down.  More than anything, writing helps me deal with the many moods of me.   Besides being able to just air my frustrations there are those moments when I actually find the ever so evasive ‘Aha Moment‘ through ranting.

With the support of my readers I managed to clear one hurdle now one more to go – LOL more like 50 lbs to go.

So here begins a new chapter in my online diary.  Hopefully I can motivate myself and others to be skinny I mean healthier and happier.